CAMP, CAMP, CAMPEDY, CAMP

So... this post is going to be super camp, like totally SUPER CAMP!

& its all Sky Livings fault... damn them & their Steps Reunion... its bought up my love for Steps, I thought it had died along with the demise of the band itself, but alas it was hidden behind my liking for much more hipster dickhead things.... like Lomography, Lego & the Long Blondes! 

But yes, these are my favourite Steps songs.







Yes, camp. But to be honest after watching a load of Steps videos online, the 2 i've posted really aren't that camp in the gand scheme of Steps campery... I don't know why im justifying my choice of Steps songs, as I don't care what anyone that bothers to read this thinks!

A POLKA DOT BOW-TIE

I had an adventure today... an adventure all on my own, an adventure to London. Now I was going to try & be totally cultural & go to all my favourites galleries & museums, but alas, something was beckoning me...

I've paid off my Topman account card & thought it wouldn't hurt if I just had a look in the flagship store... so yer, I tried on many things & ended up spending £68 on a floral polo shirt, a pale blue smart-ish shirt & 2 bow-ties. One bow-tie is more a brooch made of tartan felt & the other is glorious, a beautiful pistachio green polka dot affair.... I intend to wear this, alot, as Doctor Who would say 'bow-ties are cool'.

They are indeed.

It could have been much worse, I tried on several coats & jackets, that all fitted beautifully, which is rare for Topman, & the only reason I didn't buy any of them was I couldn't be bothered to lug them around with me!

Right, so after a little shop & a little lunch with a friend, I decided I would be cultural god damn it, so I hoped on a tube & headed to the National Gallery & the National Portrait Gallery. This next statement may shock you... I actually PAID to get into an exhibition!! I never pay to get into exhibitions... but this one was special, The Glamour of the Gods, gorgeous, fabulous, totally camp... black & white photographs of Hollywood stairs in the heyday of well glamourous Hollywood!

Also i've drunk far too much coffee today. Two lattes in London both with an extra shot in, sufficed to say I had the jitters before I got on the High-Speed home, oh & i've just had another coffee...

Tonight, I shall be a HUMMINGBIRD.

SICK

I appear to have been rather ill this last 24 hours.... i've been sick, twice & been a bit rear endy aswell!

Thing is i'm not quite sure how or why i have been ill. For one i very rarely throw up, so that was a shocker & well the poo has just been a bit bizarre. There is a couple of things that could have caused this, 3 glasses of champagne & half a bottle of wine... Or it could have been eating really rather late last night, my body not digesting the food... Or the tremendously chocolatey pudding... Or it could be the lamb, apparently lamb does not agree with me, everytime i've eaten it in the last year or so it have given me a dicky tummy!

Or this is probably bollocks, but maybe my body doesn't want me to eat meat....

Sorry for the slight wrongness of this post, but ho hum this what has happened in the last 24 hours!

LEFT OUT

I have an overwhelming feeling of being left out at the moment. 

I'm not really sure why I've been feeling this way, I shouldn't be feeling this way... pretty sure I'm not being left out of things. Just feel a bit out of the loop & like I am stagnating. Kind of feels like when you get water in your ears & you can't really hear what people are saying... maybe that is a dreadful analogy!?

Also trying not to dwell on this feeling, but alas I'm  dramatic soul, so no matter what good stuff is going on in my little life, I focus on the durge at the bottom & fixate & almost wallow in my own self pity... hence this little ol' blog post!!

Teeny weeny brainwave whilst writing this, I always feel like this at this time of year...

It's my yearly existential crisis... I have a birthday coming up, it's probably something about Mercury in flux or some sort of malarky (which I only partially believe in ((LIES)) )

It'll pass in a week or so, but only if I have a good birthday... maybe I should pull a strop & go all organisational Nazi about the whole affair, though then stuff could still go wrong, ah the little issues that I take to heart!

A TABLE & A CHAIR

A table & a chair is what i need to complete 'the studio'. Yesterday I cleared the studio & it really didn't take too long. Maybe thats because I made an amazing playlist, that i'm still listening to now.

Well it was almost cleared, as clear as it could have been without completely taking the rest of the flat over with the random crap i'd accumulated! But look there is carpet....amazing.

So, once it was clear I was left with this....

Now, in this picture it doesn't look like much stuff, but trust me it was a hell of a lot of crap, most of which got thrown away or found a place for it to hide.

This is now what i'm calling a good starting point for my studio dream... all I need is a desk, a fairly long one that isn't too deep, which is becoming a challenge already, as every desk/table I have seen is short & too deep... even the idea of just getting a bit of wood & some legs is looking a tad complicated!! Also it needs to work for both The Partner & myself.

So, that was my Sunday... & I did a darn good job...& the music was excellent, a glorious mix of campy dance, hipster indie & fantastic 80's HI-NRG.

More to come in the adventures of the studio, there may even be some art to show soon....

SLIGHT AUTISTIC TENDANCY

According to The Partner & several others (my parents) I have an amazing talent that verges on the autistic... I only need to hear a song once & I will know almost all the words, the pitch of vocal & the length of note! I thought I was completely normal, but apparently its my obsessive gift.

This brings me onto the actual belly of this post... MUSIC I'M CURRENTLY LOVING AT THE MOMENT!!!! It is such a terrifying mix of styles, that I find totally natural & have no shame in admitting my undying love for each & every piece of music



J'adore RuPaul, every aspect, I am rather obsessed with her/him at the moment, RuPauls Drag Race for those who are not my way inclined is possibly the greatest. campest programme on telly... a mixture of ANTM, Project Runway & American Idol/X Factor, gloriously camp & fronted by RuPaul looking more like Tyra Banks than Tyra herself.



Metronomy are just amazing the album that this song is taken from The English Riviera is so gloriously British... & this song is yummy with its end of the pier organ & adorable sea gulls... LOVE

There are about a million other songs i'm loving at the moment, but alas its late & I can't really be bothered to hunt down videos, so I shall just list them & you lovely people can go hunting yourselves safe in the knowledge that you trust my taste.... haha

Right then here goes, Mother Mother any song, all 3 albums are immense
Nicola Roberts - Lucky Day, bit contentious but frigging good fun
The Saturdays - All Fired Up, gay anthemtastic! 
Pj Harvey - Let England Shake (Mercury Prize winner 2011 YAY) a brilliant collection of protest songs, or any of her other albums... i'm not choosy!

WELL THIS IS DREADFUL

Instead of getting off my bum & beginning the mega sort of what will become my studio, I am sitting watching the barrel of talent being scraped. Yes unfortunately I am watching The X Factor...I hate The X Factor, it makes me sad inside.

But I am transfixed... transfixed with this SHIT!! 

Art has been replaced by dreadful Saturday prime time TV.

I could even go out, but...

DAMN YOU DYLAN

Yes thats right, damn you Dylan http://dylansdiscreetdiary.blogspot.com/ i've still got that song stuck in my head..... well not a song, more a movie theme style music!



Yes, yes I have the theme from Jurrasic Park stuck in my head, it has been stuck in my head since Tuesday.... i've been whistling it all day bloody every day.... *shakes fists*

I also have Hava Nagila stuck in my head, this is also Dylans fault, but I don't mind it.

I don't mind having either of them stuck in head, Dylan is awesome & looks like Jessica Rabbit! 

NEW BRAND NEW NEW NEW

Well hello there... 

I'm back, i'm going to blog more frequently & hopefully more interestingly!



Right here goes, in my flat, i'm ment to have a studio (the spare room) for me to do arting & such, my own creative space, the only problem is that since I moved in, 11 months ago, it has become a junk room, half my arty farty malarky is still in boxes, canvases are gathering dust, paint is solidifying...

But NO MORE... I will have studio I can use god damn it, also it helps that 'the partner' is now studying an OU course so needs a desk & somewhere quiet to write essays & such.

This will become my studio/'the partners' study space...

Look at that mess, even the Christmas tree is in there!!!! I shall of course keep you updated on my progress with pictures & posts. Then hopefully when it's done I shall once again feel creative & able to make art or even just mess around with the beautiful duck egg sewing machine..... HUZZAH

won't somebody think of the children...

I do apologize for being the worst blogger ever. But alas I have a life, all be it a very dull life at the moment. You see until I get a better paid job or win the lottery I cant really afford to do the exciting things that I want to do.


 OH FOR FUCKS SAKE

I just wrote something all deep & meaningful & then stupidly deleted all of it.....by accident.

STOOPID Mac

so here is the abridged version of my emotional ramble. Sunday night, faux date, ghosts, scared, death, almost cried, realised I havent dealt with something from years ago, now have a strange feeling almost constantly!

im a terrible blogger

I do apologize for being an atrocious blogger of late, but nothing spectacularly blog worthy has happened. Other than buying a ukulele, metallic purple...delicious, getting rather merry on several occasions and discovering Subway now does nachos... nothing of interest. 

Though I have just had lunch & M&S sandwiches have to be the best in the frigging universe

NOM NOM NOMMEDY NOM

I promise ill be more interesting soon...

not yet

HUMPF & BLERG

No ukulele yet, i was far too lazy today to actually go out on my lunch & buy one. Maybe i shall tomorrow! Or maybe i wont.

 But soon it shall be UKULELE UKULELE UKULELE

UKULELE

UKULELE

UKULELE

UKULELE

excited....more information tomorrow

SOMETHING NEEDS TO CHANGE

Something in my life needs to change... I don't know what it is, but something, an element of my world needs to change, become different. I feel destructive, mentally, like something needs to be ripped down & kicked about, stabbed from behind a shower curtain!

It could well be work, I really do want a new job, its just become far too familiar, I could do the job with my eyes closed, most of the people are adorable, the job itself is alright, but I don't think its enough. Plus its that time of year when people seem to leave, maybe I feel I need to be part of the exodus?

BLERG Sundays always make me feel existential... 

Maybe its Canterbury, maybe i've outgrown it!

It's definately not Mr P, i'm at least 99% sure it's not Mr P, he is the most adorable & lovely creature I think i've ever had the pleasure to know. Mushy, but true. Maybe we both need to leave, start a fresh somewhere else, somewhere people can visit us, somewhere we can have a garden & a cat.

Oh I don't know, it could just be because its Sunday & Sundays have always been a time for reflection & panic of the week to come... i'm a very very nervous person, I just have ways of hiding it! 

Also I feel a bit left out, I shouldn't feel left out, just certain people I used to be close to, i'm not so much anymore & it annoys me, that they don't seem to like me, yes this doesn't make sense, they probably do like me, i've just distanced myself.

I must try harder to make an effort with these people, then maybe i'll be invited to play. I must also try harder to get over the nerves, but i've lived with them for years & think i'm coping ok with them...

Or, i'm just really more fucked up than I thought HAHA

BAD

Dear Blog,

I'm a bad & lazy Blogger. In my defense my life hasnt really been terribly blog-worthy of late, your probably best I dont talk about my savings!!

Anyway, hopefully my life will pick up in the next few days...

Or ill blog on Sunday, once ive recovered from what is turning out to be a very messy planned evening. God bless the Gay Christmas that is Eurovision...

filthy glasses...

My glasses really really REALLY need a clean...

oh &I want some taxidermy, or butterflies in big cases....

Ghostbusters ooze

So the inspiration is still here, its grown stronger & more powerful, like an enemy or a the purple sewer ooze in Ghostbusters 2. The only problem is, ive not done anything with the inspiration!! Well technically ive done a couple of sketches of ideas of work I want to do, but no actual tangible 'art work', ive spoken about the pieces, to several people, all of whom have seemed interested, or at least feigned interest...

Ive worked out why the inspiration is pulsating & doing its Ghostbusters 2 thing. The answer is below mon amies...

THURSDAY NIGHT

Yes, Thursday night has created the Ghostbusters 2 oozing inspiration. It was a rather eventful, inspirational night, the pub after work, with people from work, we are a rather odd mix. Anyway, the true point of inspiration came when I went for a cigarette with 2 of my lovely work collegues/friends, all of us a bit artsy, a bit too clever for our good, starting discussing art, the meaning of art, its effect on ourselves & the world around us & we stumbled on to Fluxism, which is a modern art movement from the 60's Yoko Ono was a big part of the Fluxist movement, I do kinda know what its about & remember it being a rather interesting lecture.

Right im getting way off the point. Sorry about the tangent dear reader.

So yes Fluxism & the connection the 3 of had to understanding it made me all the more inspired, not that my work is Fluxist. But just the knowledge the people got what I was wittering on about, made me inspired that I could make work that not only I could understand, but work that others could actually understand & truly be affected by it.

This makes no sense, except to me & certain people. Im not apologizing for the rambles or the tangents. Im venting, trying to keep the inspiration or the Ghostbusters 2 ooze alive..

feelings, such strange feelings..

I have a very strange feeling brewing, it's a feeling I know well, it's a feeling that I have only had for fleeting moments in the last year or so.

This feeling has freaked me out about....

Its feels very strong and stirring, like its building from deep within, my fingers are twitching & the blood is pulsing through my body & I can feel it rushing to my brain & oozing from every being, taking over my very core!!!

What is this feeling, why its inspiration.

I want to make things & create beauty & feel free & full of abandon, I want this to last. I don't want it to go away like has over the last month....

Now here is the issue, I don't currently have the space to be as creatively free as I want, yup still not sorted out the studio, don't even have a desk yet!!! Looks like i'll have to commander the dining room table, which is not nescecarily a bad thing, as its big & long & perfect for spreading out...

Also I have a new phone, well not a brand new phone, a used phone, but its still a vast improvement to the phone that I had! Best thing about it is the camera....

Wanting....

I want to make things...

I want my 'studio' to be up & running & dig out my sewing machine & play. She is a beaut, haven't named her yet, so am open to suggestions. 

The issue is, I don't have the time to set up my 'studio', I don't really have the money to buy the things to make beautiful & shiny things to possibly sell. Though I do have a lot of things I can utilise to make things. BLERG

Below is my beaut of a sewing machine, please help me name her?

KYLIE WAS F'ING AMAZING

Right this is going to be a rather overtly camp post...

So, yesterday I went to see 'the Minogue' at the o2 with Mr Penton & it was frigging awesome, she was amazing, totally, utterly amazing. It was one of the campest things I have ever been party to, which in my slightly wibbly world of late was a rather nice distraction....only downside with the evening was annoying people sitting behind HUMPF with their loudness, atrocious singing & general cackness of fan!

Oh how I wish to see her again.

Campedy camp camp post rant.

On an awesome note, today I bought the 1st season of Dharma & Greg for £4............

today, was a good day!

So, yer today was actually pretty good. The weather was glorious, the air-con was actually working at work, I was smiling at customers!!! Smiling so much my face was hurting. Then of course the fact that I had bare legs, first time this year i've shorts, & the after work cider... all in all a good day.

Oh & then homemade burgers & Castles....

But I digress & ramble... I like a nice ramble, the verbal & the walky kind.

Anyway, i've been feeling kinda creative, which is good, as I should be feeling creative. Only issue is, I have no time to be creative, other than with mannequins & after a while thats a bit monotanous (can't spell the word). I had my Mini Diana F with me today & it just sat in my bag... I really should so some work, even if it is just drawings, little drawings in my little moleskine.

Yes that is what I will do, I will do little drawings, they may be the same drawing over & over, but its drawing!

On another tangent, I feel a little bit left out of things, its just me being childish I suppose, & some of your friends may not adore me, but I still want to be invited...

Ramble over

oh & I like this picture

I took this picture, with my Fisheye using Lomography redscale film.

so this is a bit strange...

So this is my first entry on my first ever blog...
Feels a bit strange, I feel a bit exposed, I don't really know what to put, i'm suddenly very concious of my spelling & grammar.

So all I shall do is post a picture, as picture of some of my work, a detail of a panel, which i'm sure i'll talk about at some point...